Welcome! I’m Heidi, wife of Tahd and mom to my own three children, Gabe, (2004) Isla (2012), and Jude (2013). Notice that big gap? I started this project when I found myself coming out of a difficult season of secondary infertility, battered and depleted from the roller coaster of loss and despair. On the surface, I had everything I’d ever dreamed of – a happy, busy family with multiple kiddos, and I had every reason to be happy, every reason to celebrate and embrace life fully. More often than not, however, life seemed hard, more burdensome and lackluster than precious or rich. I loved my kids and I loved my life, but I knew there was more joy to be found in my current season of life.
The more I’ve talked with other mothers, the more I’ve realized I’m not alone. Fear, loneliness, and uncertainty are a shared experience among mothers. And did I mention busy? We are all so busy – busy with good things, certainly, but just plain busy. We get to the end of our days with a fraction of our to-do list complete and anxiety about tomorrow and worry that we’re missing the richness and meat of motherhood. We want things to be different, but we don’t know what can give because everything seems so important.
Enter Loving Motherhood More.
This is a project, not a destination. I’m not an expert mother with all the answers. I’m a fellow journeyer who believes in the power of intentional living in community. I’ll tell you a secret. Drop by for a visit one day, and you’ll probably find my house in disarray with chaos abounding. My kids won’t be perfectly coiffed and there might be hitting or refusal to share or any number of other things. This is all because I’m not a perfect mother. Not by a long shot. I don’t write here and create these projects because I have all the answers. I write here as a fellow mother in the trenches, a companion journeying along the path because I want to love this stage more and I want to love my kids better.
Our kids don’t need more stuff. They don’t need more activities or fancy programs. They need more of us – fully engaged, deeply joyful and thrilled at the opportunity we have to be their mothers. I think these are goals within reach, too. Will you join me on this journey?